Clean and Serene – @SoberMovement

On May 21st, 2018, I went to detox for what felt like the thousandth time. 5 years ago, after years of battling a drug addiction with the added struggle of using intravenously and an alcohol addiction, I finally admitted that I had a problem and made the first attempt at getting clean. Admitting it was one thing, but coming to terms with it and accepting it was another thing. From that point on I wasn’t able to make it past three months clean. Every time I reached the three-month mark the hard work began and it was more than I could handle and I found any excuse to relapse. I refused to do things any other way than the way that I always knew, and it wasn’t until six months ago when I faced a near death experience for the third time that I accepted that I had a problem and that I couldn’t do it my way; nor could I do it alone. Doing things my way never worked for me. I couldn’t use responsibly, I couldn’t use period, and the thought of I never using again was terrifying and so hard to imagine. After may failed attempts at finding and maintaining recovery, today I am 6 months and 23 days, the longest I’ve ever been able to stay clean and sober, and I have found so much serenity and freedom in recovery. I graduated from college with a diploma in Social Services and am now in university working towards my Bachelor of Arts in Community Studies honouring in psychology. I never thought I would make it this far, and I never thought I’d have the beautiful life that I have today. Today I am sober, today I am grateful, and today I am free. Living life one day at a time ❤️

Emily

1 thought on “Clean and Serene – @SoberMovement”

  1. I’ve refused but also tried and failed every week for two years
    I will die soon
    I’m going to a rehab retreat to help start with meditation and coping mechanisms
    Thankyou for sharing

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