500 Days Sober – Recovery – Addiction – @SoberMovement
I don’t think anyone wakes up one day and says you know today’s a great day to get addicted to drugs. Maybe next I’ll try being homeless, hungry, humiliated, incarcerated, etc… But somehow that’s where I ended up. I tried so many times, SO. MANY. TIMES. to get clean. I just couldn’t do it and stick with it. Long story (semi) short… I found myself in jail (again) but this time also found out I was pregnant. I decided I didn’t want to go back to the same life with the same people doing the same thing. I had a lot of time to think and read. The only reading material was a bible. I found myself talking to God and developing a relationship with him! My thoughts were now clearer since I was sober in jail… i decided if i wanted a different life I needed to make different choices. The first was upon release I entered a treatment facility (I didn’t want to go but I also didn’t want my baby born addicted or to a parent addicted) .
I completed treatment and have remained clean. It actually has gotten easier as time goes on. I have new routines. I only surround myself with people I want to be like. I work steps, go to meetings, and talk about my honest feelings. I’m now a functional member of society!! A former junky that’s now someone I’m proud of, I’m a wonderful mom and I don’t care about others opinions I KNOW I’m doing a great job! I love the Lord, I love to serve him! I love church. Without God I could never have done this. I’m just grateful that for 500 days I haven’t used. And hopefully 5000000000 more I won’t either but I KNOW today I won’t and that’s all I do… take it 1 day at a time, whatever it takes to not take the first drug!