No matter what, July 20th, 2013 will always be the best day of my life. It was the day I had finally lost enough in my life to seek help. I didn’t know it at the time, and it was one of the toughest first months of my life, but it brought me so many amazing days between then and now. If July 20th didn’t happen then my days of freedom would have been numbered meaning one of two things would have happened. Thanks to July 20th, 2013, on February 28th, 2014 I got to marry my best friend and know what being in a healthy relationship is like. He was there from the bad days on. On June 22, 2017 I got my baby girl, which would have never happened without July 20th.
I have had the opportunity for so many amazing experiences since then, and I feel so blessed. Amazing things happen when you come to the other side. I know the process is hard and I remember it like yesterday (thank you mom for hanging in there that weekend on patrol until a bed opened up). I remember anxiety, giving every excuse not to go, worried about what I would miss, but I gained so so much. Getting through the rough stuff in the beginning whether it be jail, fines, the process of getting clean, etc. can feel defeating but it is so worth it when you give it the time it needs. If anyone is struggling, please reach out to me or someone you trust.
It may feel like the world has given up on you, but it is so important to never give up on yourself. YOU ARE WORTH IT!! #ODAAT