Addiction, Relapse & Recovery
I started drinking at a young age of 12 to 13 years old and knew I had a problem from the first time I drank because I was a blackout drunk. That did not stop me from drinking. Soon, booze wasn’t enough for me and I started using drugs. I didn’t care about anything but drinking or using. Didn’t matter who I hurt along the way as long as I was getting drunk or high. I first started trying to quit when I was 17; I will be 27 in November. Half my life wasted on drugs and alcohol. My teenage years and early 20s all just a blur and like a bad dream. The longest Sobriety I’ve had was in September 2017 when I had over 10 months and relapsed for 3 months and I didn’t think I would make it back to recover.
But in December 2017 I found out I was pregnant. If it wasn’t for me being pregnant, I don’t think I would have quit. I’m over 6 months sober and I know I have a long road ahead of me. I am going to continue on this path of Sobriety after she is born so I can be the best mom I can possibly be to her. She deserves the best and thats what I will give her. I don’t want her to grow up the same way I did in an alcoholic home and broken family. I am doing this not only for me but for her so she can have a sober mommy and never has to see me drunk.